Ohmy, I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. Why do you always have to wait till i give up then only will you make me believe that You're real? Yet, after that when i returned to Your Kingdom and believe in You. You left me alone wondering "Are You real?" "Where were You when i need You?" "What is happening to my prayer?" I hate it, pretty pretty please !
Now, that i had enough of trying. I wanted to give up and leave. I no longer believe. This is going to happen. My friend receive Christ in another church, i believe that HAOG is better because they don't compromise. When I believe in You, this never happened, Yet now, I no longer believe. It happened. What is this? Am i supposed to take my words back and bring her to church yet after that leave again? Leaders are hating me because of all this, I guess.
Friends are hating me because i been giving up and leaving? Who can I trust? When I have problems or being too sensitive and wanted to share with people in church about it, What Happened ?! I was being betrayed ! B.E.T.R.A.Y.E.D ! Listen up ok ? I know about it. I'm not stupid ? I know what is exactly going on ? Don't take me like as if i'm stupid or whatsoever.
I had enough. Now, you send friends to get me back on track. Ohmy. Nonono. I'm really tired of trying and trying. Now, i seriously harden my heart. Yes, it is wrong, I know. But i must because i had enough. Don't ask me, " Why you are not coming?" Because, my answers is going to be a "N.O!" That's it. I had enough. Sorry. All I can say is simply S.O.R.R.Y ! You've proven me W-R-O-N-G !
